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One Moment We Were So Happy, And Then It All Changed | A Mothers Story Of Child Loss
Winter speaks with Claire about her sweet little daughter Paulie, who was born at 41 weeks but passed in the birthing process. Claire talks about the joy of her pregnancy and the happiness that came from expecting a new member to their family. She talks about going to the birthing center and enjoying the process until Paulie was stuck in the birthing canal and needed to be rushed to the hospital to finish the birthing.
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One Moment We Were So Happy, And Then It All Changed | A Mothers Story Of Child Loss
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Winter speaks with Claire about her sweet little daughter Paulie, who was born at 41 weeks but passed in the birthing process. Claire talks about the joy of her pregnancy and the happiness that came from expecting a new member to their family. She talks about going to the birthing center and enjoying the process until Paulie was stuck in the birthing canal and needed to be rushed to the hospita...
How Finding Community Helped Me Heal In My Grief | Advice From A Mother Of Stillbirth
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Ari and Winter talk about things that have helped after the death of Kai, Ari's sweet baby boy who was stillborn. Ari talks about the people who came and supported her after the loss, and how that has help her to heal. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want t...
How Finding Community Helped Me Heal In My Grief | Advice From A Mother Of Stillbirth
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Ari and Winter talk about things that have helped after the death of Kai, Ari's sweet baby boy who was stillborn. Ari talks about the people who came and supported her after the loss, and how that has help her to heal. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want t...
He Was Born In The Golden Hour | A Mothers Stillbirth Story
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Winter talks with Ari about her sweet little boy Kai, who was stillborn at 30 weeks. Ari talks about the joy of announcing to her husband that she was pregnant and the fun they had telling their families later that they were expecting a baby. Ari recounts how she became nervous when she didn't feel normal movement from her Kai, and went to the hospital to have her nerves calmed. There in a plac...
He Was Born In The Golden Hour | A Mothers Stillbirth Story
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Winter talks with Ari about her sweet little boy Kai, who was stillborn at 30 weeks. Ari talks about the joy of announcing to her husband that she was pregnant and the fun they had telling their families later that they were expecting a baby. Ari recounts how she became nervous when she didn't feel normal movement from her Kai, and went to the hospital to have her nerves calmed. There in a plac...
I'm Able To Say Their Names And Share Their Story | Advice From A Mother Of Loss
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Elif talks with Winter about what has helped her heal in these short months after the passing of her twin children Mavi and Deniz, who died shortly after birth due to placental failure and complications of cholestasis of Elif's pregnancy. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting cos...
I'm Able To Say Their Names And Share Their Story | Advice From A Mother Of Loss
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Elif talks with Winter about what has helped her heal in these short months after the passing of her twin children Mavi and Deniz, who died shortly after birth due to placental failure and complications of cholestasis of Elif's pregnancy. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting cos...
My Little Swallows Are Flying In Paradise | A Mothers Story Of Loss
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Elif and Winter have a beautiful conversation about her sweet twin children, Mavi and Deniz who were born at 25 weeks due to placental failure and complications of cholestasis of her pregnancy. Elif talks about the struggle that she and her husband had to conceive, but the joy they experienced when they did have a positive birth test and later about finding out that they were expecting twins. E...
My Little Swallows Are Flying In Paradise | A Mothers Story Of Loss
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Elif and Winter have a beautiful conversation about her sweet twin children, Mavi and Deniz who were born at 25 weeks do to placental failure and complications of cholestasis of her pregnancy. Elif talks about the struggle that she and her husband had to conceive, but the joy they experienced when they did have a positive birth test and later about finding out that they were expecting twins. El...
10 Months Since Losing My Daughter | Advice From a Mother Of Stillbirth
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Kaileigh and Winter talk about how life has been since the passing of Melody, who died in utero at 21 weeks and 5 days. Kaileigh talks about the support from good family and friends and the relief that has had. Kaileigh talks about and shares a poem she wrote for her sweet Melody. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all...
10 Months Since Losing My Daughter | Advice From a Mother Of Stillbirth
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Kaileigh and Winter talk about how life has been since the passing of Melody, who died in utero at 21 weeks and 5 days. Kaileigh talks about the support from good family and friends and the relief that has had. Kaileigh talks about and shares a poem she wrote for her sweet Melody. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all...
Her Big Brother Chose The Perfect Name | Stillborn at 21 Weeks
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Winter has a wonderful conversation with Kaileigh about her daughter Melody, who was stillborn at 21 weeks and 5 days. Kaileigh talks about how she had the "perfect" first trimester with very little morning sickness. How the got the 3D ultrasound and the beautiful videos of Melody. Kaileigh then recounts having a premonition feeling that something wasn't correct as they come home from a short v...
Her Big Brother Chose The Perfect Name | Stillborn at 21 Weeks
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Winter has a wonderful conversation with Kaileigh about her daughter Melody, who was stillborn at 21 weeks and 5 days. Kaileigh talks about how she had the "perfect" first trimester with very little morning sickness. How the got the 3D ultrasound and the beautiful videos of Melody. Kaileigh then recounts having a premonition feeling that something wasn't correct as they come home from a short v...
Finding Support While Mourning | Advice From A Stillbirth Mother
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Makayla and Winter talk about the little things that helped in the recovery after Makayla's little daughter Cambria passed away due to complications with Type 1 diabetes. Makayla talks about the wonderful people what have surrounded her and helped her become a better mother and advocate. Makayla talks about the changing circumstances in her healing that has lead her to where she is now. DONATE ...
Finding Support While Mourning | Advice From A Stillbirth Mother
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Finding Support While Mourning | Advice From A Stillbirth Mother
I Don't Get To Talk About My Late Daughter As Much | A Mother's Stillbirth Story
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I Don't Get To Talk About My Late Daughter As Much | A Mother's Stillbirth Story
I Don't Get To Talk About My Late Daughter As Much | A Mother's Stillbirth Story
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I Don't Get To Talk About My Late Daughter As Much | A Mother's Stillbirth Story
How To Celebrate Your Late Child Throughout Life? | Advice From A Mother Of Stillbirth
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How To Celebrate Your Late Child Throughout Life? | Advice From A Mother Of Stillbirth
How To Celebrate Your Late Child Throughout Life? | Advice From A Mother Of Stillbirth
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How To Celebrate Your Late Child Throughout Life? | Advice From A Mother Of Stillbirth
I Have Always Kept Her In My Heart | A Mothers Stillbirth Story
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I Have Always Kept Her In My Heart | A Mothers Stillbirth Story
I Have Always Kept Her In My Heart | A Mothers Stillbirth Story
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I Have Always Kept Her In My Heart | A Mothers Stillbirth Story
The Ways People Helped After My Sons Passing | Advice From A Mother Of Loss
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The Ways People Helped After My Sons Passing | Advice From A Mother Of Loss
The Ways People Helped After My Sons Passing | Advice From A Mother Of Loss
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The Ways People Helped After My Sons Passing | Advice From A Mother Of Loss
My Sweet Little Desmond, Till We Meet Again | A Mothers Stillbirth Story
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My Sweet Little Desmond, Till We Meet Again | A Mothers Stillbirth Story
My Sweet Little Desmond, Till We Meet Again | A Mothers Stillbirth Story
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My Sweet Little Desmond, Till We Meet Again | A Mothers Stillbirth Story
What I Now Feel After My Baby's Death | Advice From A Mother Of Stillbirth
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What I Now Feel After My Baby's Death | Advice From A Mother Of Stillbirth
What I Now Feel After My Baby's Death | Advice From A Mother Of Stillbirth
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What I Now Feel After My Baby's Death | Advice From A Mother Of Stillbirth
Even Though He Was So Small, He Will Always Live In My Heart | My Stillbirth Story
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Even Though He Was So Small, He Will Always Live In My Heart | My Stillbirth Story
Even Though He Was So Small, He Will Always Live In My Heart | My Stillbirth Story
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  • @lirpa1981
    @lirpa1981 День тому

    I cry watching these stories. I’ve lost 12 to miscarriage but all between 8-13 weeks. I am thankful that God took them earlier rather than later.

  • @lirpa1981
    @lirpa1981 День тому

    I cry watching these stories. I’ve lost 12 to miscarriage but all between 8-13 weeks. I am thankful that God took them earlier rather than later. My 4th baby, had the cord wrapped around his neck 4 times. My midwife had been delivering babies for almost 30 years and she had only seen one other baby with the cord wrapped 4 times. I almost lost him during delivery. He also had a 2 vessel cord and had a BM in the womb. I also had an IUD inserted while pregnant and didn’t know I was pregnant. Was 10 weeks pregnant when they removed it and was 8 weeks when it was put in. He is truly my miracle baby.

  • @lirpa1981
    @lirpa1981 День тому

    Beautiful baby. Men will never quite understand the bond a mother has with her baby. Adam’s distance seems to be very common among fathers that have lost a child.

  • @bonniezink2878
    @bonniezink2878 День тому

    I am so sorry for your family’s loss. ❤❤❤❤

  • @tammyroberts4272
    @tammyroberts4272 День тому

    Thanking you for sharing your story. So sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers

  • @penelopeeckersley1854
    @penelopeeckersley1854 День тому

    So beautifully heartbreaking hearing these two women share their story of loss with such courage. Huge respect to you Claire, and the deepest condolences. Your love for Paulie is so moving. As a retired NICU RN, it always fills me with such awe, the dignity and grace with which families deal with unimaginable tragedy. Hug from Australia for you Claire.

  • @emsmckenzie
    @emsmckenzie День тому

    This is just SO UNFAIR. My heart breaks for you. 😔I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I know words are never enough, but Sending so much love and strength. 🩷💪🏻

  • @clothdiapersandrainbows296
    @clothdiapersandrainbows296 2 дні тому

    Winter, my 2 year old is watching this with me, and you engage so wholly that she thought you were talking to her and was smiling and nodding and waving to you. 😊

  • @user-yr6gz4ek8m
    @user-yr6gz4ek8m 2 дні тому

    Big hugs xxx

  • @maryjanebrown4667
    @maryjanebrown4667 2 дні тому

    😢

  • @elifselenyavuz1101
    @elifselenyavuz1101 2 дні тому

    Oh dear...I know that feeling, replaying every single moment in your mind over and over again. Paulie is so loved, and cherished. I am so sorry for you loss. Seeing additions to this club always hurts me deeply.

  • @christinem.carter-wanner5304

    God bless this family

  • @kg3858
    @kg3858 3 дні тому

    Tammy, our eldest son was born in September of '96. Your story brought me to tears. Listening to you speak, it felt like a conversation instead of an interview. Cody was so beautiful. The manner in which SIDS was dealt with was just awful. When you had to pump after his passing, my gosh. Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you.

  • @shonaghify
    @shonaghify 3 дні тому

    How absolutely heartbreaking. Thoughts and prayers to sweet Paulie’s family and friends. What an incredible mum you are. Love and respect ❤️

  • @darleneyoung8737
    @darleneyoung8737 3 дні тому

    So sad. Prayers for you and your family. 🙏🏻🙏🏻

  • @one_ice_cold_chiq
    @one_ice_cold_chiq 3 дні тому

    Thank you for sharing your daughter's story 🙏🏻

  • @darleneyoung8737
    @darleneyoung8737 3 дні тому

    I’d love to be a midwife or a volunteer in the nursery for babies

  • @NMV-ej4zd
    @NMV-ej4zd 3 дні тому

    Claire is so sweet and articulate as she describes the loss of her perfect baby girl, Paulie. Claire may have an aversion to hospitals, and as an RN (and mother) myself, I also know hospitals are primarily associated with ill and injured patients, not healthy pregnant mothers. Hospitals do offer emergency OB services should they arise, though: operating room for c-sections, code cart and a code team for resuscitations, and a blood bank for transfusions after blood loss, none of these were available at the birthing "center." A prudent mid-wife knows a baby born past its due date is at risk of a heavier birth weight, and in Paulie's case, shoulder dystocia that prohibited a timely and safe vaginal delivery, without access to emergency care interventions. Peace be with Claire, and her family and I wish her future joy in a safe pregnancy and delivery.

  • @Sharonlee334
    @Sharonlee334 3 дні тому

    I'm so sorry for your families loss. She was beautiful 😢❤

  • @fireflymassholesunite3252
    @fireflymassholesunite3252 3 дні тому

    Sending my Condolences on the loss of you're beautiful cherub Paulie,Ive never lost a child but im crying right along with you and all others who have suffered a devastating loss...Its been an honor to hear you share you're story,God bless you and your family!❤❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️❤️🙏❤️

  • @brilliantbutblue
    @brilliantbutblue 3 дні тому

    Claire, Kevin, and Big Brother Donny. Thank you for sharing your precious Daughter Paulie Fiona with us. As Winter said, it is a privilege to cry with you. May the sky's be forever pink in memory of your beautiful Daughter 🩷

  • @NMV-ej4zd
    @NMV-ej4zd 3 дні тому

    Claire is a sweet, articulate mother during the telling this beautiful story that sadly ends with the loss of her Paulie. Even though she has an aversion to hospitals, they are better equipped for emergencies unlike a birthing center, including operating rooms for c-sections, code carts and a code team, and a blood bank (for Claire, is she needed transfusions for excessive bleeding). Paulie was past-term baby, a heavier weight can be expected, and she had shoulder dystocia resulting in a difficult vaginal birth. This was a terrible, emotional and physical trauma. Peace be with Claire, Kevin, Donnie and Paulie.

  • @christinem.carter-wanner5304

    God bless this family

  • @kristywebb3471
    @kristywebb3471 3 дні тому

    I am so very sorry for your loss. ❤

  • @christinem.carter-wanner5304
    @christinem.carter-wanner5304 10 днів тому

    God bless this family

  • @christinem.carter-wanner5304
    @christinem.carter-wanner5304 10 днів тому

    God bless this family

  • @tamig8316
    @tamig8316 11 днів тому

    You have no idea how this hit home for me. I had my daughter in 1987, then proceeded to have four late stage miscarriages, which included a set of twins. Mine were between 1989-1992, when i finally had my son in 1992, when they discovered I had a autoimmune disorder. When one of the twins died, I also felt it..Im now almost 62 years old and the pain is still so real. Im so happy these women can share here, and show their grief. It was hard back then because it wasnt talked about. Thank you for doing this for them. It is so important for them to share.

  • @a_w_entertainment
    @a_w_entertainment 12 днів тому

    I would like to be on and share my story about my Zoë.

    • @StillAPartofUs
      @StillAPartofUs 12 днів тому

      If you would like to email us at stillapartofus@gmail.com we could start a conversation about how to do this

  • @a_w_entertainment
    @a_w_entertainment 12 днів тому

    Hello Angel 👼🏻 mothers, I had 4 failed IVF, pregnant 13 weeks old heaven, miscarriages, DNC, chemical pregnancy, and with changing IVF doctors I was pregnant full term at 39 weeks and 4 days stillbirth to our first baby girl Zoë Maricile Sargent. Sending healing energy your way.

  • @jessica_2854
    @jessica_2854 13 днів тому

    Hi there, this is Jess, Mom to sweet baby Addelyn Renee. I saw a few of your comments and felt heavy on my heart to share how my story is going now today. After Addy passed away, my husband and I waited a year before trying to conceive again to allow my body to heal and for us to grieve. From 2021-2022, I suffered 3 subsequent miscarriages (6 weeks, 13 weeks and 5 weeks). I had two D&C’s. I never gave up. In June 2022 I got pregnant for the 5th time (found out on Patrick’s Birthday) with our rainbow baby. Her name is Elyse Lauren (Elly). She just turned 15 months 💕 her older sister is watching her from Heaven 🌈🌈🌈🌈 I recently had another early miscarriage following Elly and currently pregnant again…. So far having complications but trying to remain positive. Shortly after Addy passed my husband and I got every type of genetic testing at OHSU and were cleared and compatible to keep trying naturally for those who also asked. Sending love to all the parents listening and reading, this journey is so difficult. Thanks for continuing to bring love and remembrance to Addy’s life.

    • @StillAPartofUs
      @StillAPartofUs 12 днів тому

      Thank you so much for keeping us updated. We are crying with you during your hard times, and are rejoicing with you in the good times.

  • @excluyousivite
    @excluyousivite 13 днів тому

    Sorry for your loss.

  • @cindihoulroyd8211
    @cindihoulroyd8211 13 днів тому

    God bless you...prayers for your heart!!!

  • @bettyquinn4246
    @bettyquinn4246 14 днів тому

    So very sorry for your loss, Amber Rae was so very beautiful and still is... I cant even imagine what the pain of losing a child is, but to lose two is indescribable.. My sympathy goes out to all who have lost their beloved babies.

  • @destinyfaith6476
    @destinyfaith6476 14 днів тому

    Gorgeous baby boy ❤💙💙 im so so so sorry for your loss...he is a beautiful sweet angel now always with you ❤😇💖💜

  • @holliethomson6147
    @holliethomson6147 14 днів тому

    Iam so very sorry for your loss 😢💔 my heart breaks for you all. I’m sending you all so much love, peace and comfort always xxx❤🙏

  • @elifselenyavuz1101
    @elifselenyavuz1101 15 днів тому

    Such a beautiful baby...I am so so so sorry for your loss.

  • @maryellenblount6376
    @maryellenblount6376 16 днів тому

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful son with us and his story. So very sorry for your loss. 💙

  • @jamiebourgault4481
    @jamiebourgault4481 16 днів тому

    Oh sweet girl im so very sorry.....Kai is beautiful!!!!

  • @justelleslife507
    @justelleslife507 16 днів тому

    You will always be his mother, nothing will ever change that not even the way he was born sleeping, you're in the season of separation, the hardest season of all, especially when this season happens when your loved one is young, I lost my father young, it's been a very long season of separation, I compare this season to our fall season, a leaf slowly loses its greeness which says it's alive, as it slowly dies as the green leaves it, the beautiful colors of reds, oranges and yellows appears but the leaf is dying in order to produce those rich colors, then when all the green is gone, it dies and falls to the earth, only in death does it reach its fullest, deepest colors of reds, oranges and yellows, when we reach our fullest colors, as we're dying, when our green is completely gone, we fall, because our colors reach their fullest potential, your little baby reached his fullest colors quickly, he fell very young but with perfect, colorful beauty, he was very close to perfection and didn't need as much time for his beautiful colors to appear, while most of us are further away from our full potential, our green slowly leaves us, it takes longer for us to reach our most highest, beautiful colors, perfection. You had an human being very near perfection right from the start of his life, that baby is yours, always, you and him may have a very long season of separation, but in the end, when you two are reunited, you'll have each other for eternity, never again to go through another season of separation! (sorry for the length!)

  • @lovememe3847
    @lovememe3847 16 днів тому

    I loss my baby on June 04 2024 at 32 weeks. KeiMari Que Corbin my little angel.👼

  • @brilliantbutblue
    @brilliantbutblue 16 днів тому

    Thank you, Ari, for sharing your precious Son Kai with us. He is absolutely gorgeous 💙

  • @celynne58
    @celynne58 16 днів тому

    Kai was so beautiful, I'm so sorry for your loss.

  • @nancykistner7167
    @nancykistner7167 17 днів тому

    Sweet Kai is a beautiful boy 💙💙💙💙💙💙

  • @user-hk2nj1hq7i
    @user-hk2nj1hq7i 17 днів тому

    I lost 3 children. My oldest son was 40 yrs. old. My second oldest daughter daughter daughter

  • @Valentine3e
    @Valentine3e 17 днів тому

    ✨♥️🙏🏽♥️✨

  • @one_ice_cold_chiq
    @one_ice_cold_chiq 17 днів тому

    Thank you for sharing your story. I'm so sorry for your loss.

  • @bethlouden3333
    @bethlouden3333 17 днів тому

    I'd just like to say how much I admire you for putting his picture on his memorial page. It's not for everyone and not everyone will think it's right. My daughter has had 2 full term stillbirths. With the 1st one I chose to put her picture on FB. I really didn't care about what others thought and everyone was very sympathetic. But there's always that one person. She made a comment that the picture was offensive. This was a girl I had gone to school with and hung around with. It made me question wether I should have done it but when I posted and apology saying I was sorry if I had offended anyone everyone came to my defense. It wasn't the best of pictures. The skin had sloughed off in areas on her face. But I didn't care. She was a person, she still mattered and she was MY granddaughter. If I'd had better pictures I would have posted them. We would have loved to have had beautiful pictures of a healthy baby girl But it's all we had. We've never spoke again. I'd do it again too. In fact I did with my grandson but his heart quit beating somewhere between preparing to leave home in labor and arriving to the hospital so his skin was perfect. I'm sorry you had to be part of this group. The group nobody wants to be a member of. I admire your strength and courage. 🙏

    • @marciajones2993
      @marciajones2993 13 днів тому

      So sorry for your family, bless your Daughter going through that 2. Life can be very cruel. Much love and light to you all. 💙💙💙😢

  • @Valentine3e
    @Valentine3e 17 днів тому

    ✨♥️🙏🏽♥️✨

  • @janinecarlson6118
    @janinecarlson6118 17 днів тому

    I'm so incredibly sorry. May God bless you and your family. 🕊️👼💙🙏

  • @taissafernandadealmeida6527
    @taissafernandadealmeida6527 17 днів тому

    I am so so sorry for your loss.